on food and acting

This is how you know (or I know) that I'm in a show: my eating habits get completely ridiculous.

Here's a run down of the day:

• ruby red chai with milk and about 6 small peanut butter cups for breakfast, noonish.
• around 4, when I realized I'd eaten practically nothing and that was perhaps why I was feeling a bit peculiar, a cinnamon raisin bagel with butter
• a Venti Earl Grey (though they messed up - it should've been a Vanilla Rooiboos)
• "wine," wine, and a few nips of a rusty nail backstage, plus copious amounts of water
  
• Altoids
• two small slices of cold three meat DiGiorno's when I got home at midnight.
  

I can't really eat before going onstage; if I do, it makes me feel ill. Tonight included less amounts of sugar than usual; normally, gummi bears or cookies or something incredibly sweet gets consumed before or during the show.

The especially odd thing is that my appetite mostly goes away; whatever it is that gives me a performance high apparently functions like cocaine.

(Incidentally, the show is going quite well, as least as far as I can tell from backstage.)